No Ulterior Motives Here, Women Can Be Passionate About Baseball Too

Women are in and around baseball everywhere. I think that it is pretty awesome to turn on the TV and see a knowledgeable woman reporting from a game. I also enjoy having great discussions with fellow female fans during a game at a ballpark. However, I always feel as if there is this stigma that females can’t be just as passionate about the sport as men. That we always have to have some ulterior motive when enjoying the sport. I’ve heard so many different things over the years: women just like to look at the players, they only pretend to watch so that they can impress their boyfriends, or that they’re “cleat chasers.”

According to the MLB, females make up nearly half (47%) of their fan base, but often times they aren’t viewed as equals to their male counterparts.  Whether it’s the pink jerseys, hats, and shirts (WHY is it assumed ALL women like pink??), “ladies night” promotions, or male fans asking females trivia questions to make them “prove” that they’re a “true” fan (this has honestly happened to me more times than I can count), the disparity between how male and female fans are viewed is very evident.  The same can be said for how male and female sports reporters are being viewed and judged differently. It’s slowly getting better, but it is nowhere near where it should and needs to be.

I never wanted to get into this personal subject on my blog, but I felt as if now was the time to bring up some of my experiences. Recently, as both a writer and a fan, I’ve had things that have been said to me that probably would never have happened if I was a male.

First off, I haven’t posted a new article in over a week. The reason? It’s been hard getting players who want to tell me their stories. I’ve had quite a few ideas for player features over the last couple weeks and have reached out to them in hopes of getting an interview or some quotes for a blog post. One player flat out told me that he doesn’t take a blog about baseball seriously if it is written by a female because we can’t play the sport. This is probably the one thing that can be said that really bothers me.  Assuming that I do not know the sport just because I cannot play it at a professional level is absurd. I have spent every summer for the last seven years at a ballpark, and yes, I pay attention and watch the game. I don’t go to “gossip” with my friends or just “stare at the players”!

A couple of other things have happened this past week that weren’t “female” related, or they possibly could be and it just wasn’t given as the reason.  Another independent player, who has spent time in affiliated ball, told me he wasn’t going to be with an indy team long, so he didn’t want to be associated with an independent based blog. And finally, most players just don’t reply to my inquires or blow off my request for an interview because I’m not “official” or associated with some media outlet. A “no thank you” reply is much nicer than a “No, you don’t know how to write” reply. I know that I’m not official, and I don’t expect players to agree to an interview. However, I do expect some sort of professionalism and respect.

On the flip side, it has been even worse as a fan. If anyone knows me, they know that I’m passionate about the sport and the guys who play it. I’ve been a season ticket holder for a major league team and an independent team since I was in college.  Being at a ballpark practically every night, you get to know the players that you see all summer long. In addition, I’m pretty big into social media, so I’ve followed and have become friends with many players on and off the field over the years.

I’m a very giving person. I love to help out anyway that I can.  Most of the time, that means sending care packages to players during spring training or throughout the season if I know that they need or want something that they don’t always have the luxury to get with their indy or minor league salaries.

I also LOVE to draw. I have even written a blog post about my drawings HERE. For me, baseball players are a natural choice for subject matter to improve my skills and drawings during the season.

However, recently my care packages and drawings have led to fellow fans labeling me as a “stalker.” I understand that for an outsider who doesn’t know my friendships with players, it appears odd.  But I really wish that they didn’t talk about me, spread lies and gossip about stuff that they don’t understand without getting to know me and who I am.

The same can probably be said about players’ girlfriends. The care packages aren’t really a new concept with me. I’ve actually sent one to a specific player for the last three years.  This off season, he started dating a girl who didn’t understand me at all and wouldn’t bother to listen to my side of the story. She sent me a message telling me to forget about sending him candy this spring and that I better “stay away” from her man. When I tried to reply, she blocked me. Another player, who recently broke up with his girlfriend, told me that he wasn’t allowed to be my friend during the season when he was dating her, but we can be friends now that they broke up.

Sometimes, issues like this completely blow my mind. I’m not out to steal anyone’s “man.” I don’t dress provocatively at the ballpark or try to bring a player home with me. I’m just trying to be a nice fan and help out any way that I can.

If the care packages and drawings bring a smile to a player’s face after a hard day at the field or a tough road trip, then it is all worth it. If I can make a player’s day by featuring them in a blog post, it’s worth it.

And really that’s all that matters to me.


Nick Renault – World Traveler Returns Home

35-year-old Nick Renault has held onto the dream of baseball longer than most.  Playing professionally since 2001, he has had various opportunities with affiliated teams and tournament teams as well as playing in nearly every independent league imaginable from 2005 to 2011. Over seven seasons, Renault has spent time in the Frontier, Northern, Atlantic, Continental, American Association, CanAm, and North American leagues. He has experienced many highs and lows throughout his professional career, but there is one lesson that has always stuck with him:

Baseball is a game of failure. It is also a political game. The biggest mistakes, resulting in the biggest downs of my career, all came from me not knowing how to navigate the political scene. My biggest tool in dealing with it was my competitiveness. Simply trying to prove everyone wrong has driven me since day one.  You can essentially sum up my entire career with the concept of proving everyone wrong.

In 2011, finally fed up with the politics surrounding the sport, Renault made the difficult decision to retire.

I had been blackballed; fought my way back; been released, not for performance, but because the team was losing, and I made too much money; been technically released because Kevin Costner’s team didn’t want to pay their bills; flew from Hawaii to Boston to sign a contract that was agreed to over the phone, and when I landed, I drove the 1.5 hour drive to the office only to be told that they had changed their minds; been horribly lied to in Spring Training only to drive from NY to DC to find out that I had been lied to, drove back, only to be lied to again. I had simply had too much. The game of baseball simply didn’t provide any enjoyment for me anymore.

But after announcing his retirement via Facebook, a player who remembered Renault from college reached out to him. He was currently playing baseball in Germany and asked what it would take for Renault to rethink retirement and play overseas.

At the time, I wanted nothing to do with baseball. I had lost my passion. I was brokenhearted. The game felt more like a horrible job than a dream. I eventually decided to go to Germany to try to reignite my passion for the game.

He has spent the last three seasons in Germany. While he enjoyed his time overseas, he still experienced his fair share of baseball politics there as well.

My time in Germany sure was a mixed experience! On one end of the spectrum, I was released in the dugout before a game because, for two and a half months, I had demanded the team keep their end of a contract, which they refused to do. I finally told them I wouldn’t play until the conditions were met. They thought I was joking or something, and put me in the lineup the very next day. It was bad. On my way to the clubhouse, the other team tried to sign me! (breaks out laughing) So I didn’t play the last 45 days of the season, and still won the Pitcher of the Year Award. That cracks me up. I wonder how many times that has ever happened?

Then, on the other end of the spectrum, I got to play for a team who had the craziest, most passionate, most loyal fans I have ever seen. It was an absolute blast! I have never been part of an organization where the team, the coaching staff, the front office, the fans and everyone involved were really like one big family.

Maybe the coolest part of playing in Germany was working with the kids and getting to see baseball grow so rapidly over there. All in all, I was once again able to have fun playing the game I love. I eventually got healed. And even though they have many of the same politics over there that we do here, I was once again able to deal with it.

His long baseball journey has allowed him to experience everything the sport has to offer (good and bad) all around the United States and the world; However, there’s always been one thing that has eluded him for his entire career – being able to play in his hometown with his parents and children cheering him on from the stands. He has never played within a 1,000 miles of home…

Until now. For the first time in his professional career, he will be playing in his home state. Renault has signed a contract with the Oregon City Mud Turtles of the new Mount Rainier Professional Baseball League (MRPBL).

It really is a special opportunity. I think for every ballplayer, they dream of their parents and their kids getting to watch them play. It has been something that has torn at my heart forever. As a matter of fact, one of my ‘signatures’ if you will, is the fact that I write something in the mound and pray before each time I pitch. People have asked me more times than I can even begin to tell you what I write, and what I pray about. I write my children’s initials. And I prayed that God helps me use my gifts to see them again. So for the first time in my career, my parents will get to see me play. And God willing, for the first time in my career, my children will as well. Although that will take nothing short of a miracle.

Even at 35, Renault doesn’t foresee any issues with being physically prepared to take on another season. His body has never been a problem.  Throughout his career, he has only spent a total of three weeks on the disabled list, and the last stint was in 2008. In addition, the MRPBL season starts later than what he is normally used to, so he will have extra weeks to prepare for the beating baseball can take on the body.

No, the problem with Renault won’t occur physically, but the season may take its toll on him both mentally and emotionally for a variety of reasons.

I’m known as an emotional player. I play with my heart on my sleeve. I’m pretty sure you can’t find a soul in the world that can say they have seen me take the field and not give 125% of my heart and soul to the game! 

But with all the emotions of playing in my hometown, chasing huge career marks, playing against one of the managers that saved my career and it probably being my last season, it will be interesting to see how much that energizes me, or if it’s too much. Throughout my career I have been better when the stakes are higher. I plan on this being an extremely good year.

And the stakes have never been higher for Renault to go out on top in his hometown.  He is chasing two huge career milestones:  1,000 innings pitched and 1,000 strikeouts. Those numbers are big for any pitcher, but for a player who has pitched as both a starter and a reliever in so many different leagues, they are remarkable milestones to reach.

Personal records aside, he wants to be a part of the team that brings baseball and a championship back to the Portland area.

I want one last ring. I have a ring at almost every level, the only one escaping me was losing in Germany, in the final game of the Championship Series, with a lead in the 8th inning. That hurts. As a player I think we tend to dwell on our playoff experiences. Which is ironic, since playoff statistics don’t count. And in this game, you are eternally judged by your statistics. I don’t want my last playoff memory to be losing in that final game. Nor do I want it to be what happened last year, which was a positive memory dampened by a sour ending.*

* Renault was hired by a team in Germany who had never made the playoffs in their entire team’s history. They hired him specifically to get them into the playoffs. A lot of people doubted the move. However, not only did they make the playoffs, they pulled off a shocking upset in the first round and advanced to the semi-finals. Even though the team got beat badly in the semis, everyone in the organization considered it a great year.

I want to dog pile one more time with an entire team of guys like me. Guys that were told they couldn’t make it for whatever reason. Guys that were overlooked. Guys that weren’t ‘projectable’ or that don’t have the prototype bodies. I want to show the world that winning brings fans to the games, not big names. I want to go out on my terms, in my style. And I couldn’t think of a better way to do it than winning against all odds, when everyone says you can’t.

Renault has always dreamed of bringing baseball back to Portland.  He’s even thought about stadium designs and concepts that would make the team unique and classic at the same time.

I have always thought Portland is a perfect baseball city, particularly for the minor leagues! A major part of the minors is the quirkiness, the intimacy of the experience. Something you don’t get at a major league stadium. What else is Portland if it’s not quirky and intimate?!  

The home of micro brews, the champion of small business, a land of small coffee shops and personal grocery stores, a huge supporter of local independent bands. Portland’s personality traits fit perfect to everything a minor league game should offer. I plan on being a part of bringing that experience back to Portland. Honestly, I think the marriage between minor league baseball and Portland is made in heaven, or at least on Mt. Hood!

This season is all about one more chance with baseball – for Renault and for Portland. Renault has had a long and interesting road thanks to baseball, but the time has come for him to finally come home.

Featured Image by: Walter Keller,, Copyright 2014


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